Trying to Write Every Day

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Trying to write every day because that’s what good writers do.  Well, how’s that going for ya?

This shouldn’t be hard.  It really ought not to be.  Was that grammatically correct?  You tell me.

But anyway.  I’m determined not to produce crap, but somehow that means I don’t produce anything at all.  I tell myself I don’t have enough time to create something beautiful so I just don’t create.  Which is a better use of my time?  Thinking about how I don’t have enough time to create something worthwhile, or actually just writing something, even though it’s worthless?

How many times have you face-palmed today?  Not enough, in my opinion.  Your forehead isn’t red enough yet.

Well, where did it all go wrong?  When did you start running out of time?  If you can’t tell whether I’m talking to you–the reader–or myself, join the club.  ‘Cause frankly, I don’t know either.

Social media.  Holy gosh it’s a waste of time and a trap for anyone who wants to be intelligent at some point in their lives.  I tell myself I should be on social media because I think I’m smart and I should share my smartness with the world.  I feel a whole lot stupider as a result of this decision.

“Learn something new today”–Psshaww!  How bout you just apply something that you’ve already learned a bajillion times?  The only new thing you need to learn is how to apply the old things you learned.  Practical thinkers, apparently, are the ones who go farthest in life.  The problem is that being practical isn’t always very practical when you’re trying to go beyond practical.

When was the last time you felt bliss?  Just pure, uninterrupted bliss?  You don’t know?  It feels like every time I get close I start worrying about how it’ll all sound on paper.  I need to put it on paper because I’m practical and I’m a writer.  Then the blissful moment is gone.

And we’re back at square one.

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Finding time to write…well, I just did.  And, if you read all that, I bet you’re wondering, like me, if it was all a complete waste of time.

But hey, I did it, right?

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Consequences

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Try to go through life without consequences.  It won’t happen.  You can’t have it.

So many things in life are trade-offs.  We seldom realize it, but every time we ask the questions, “Why don’t I have time?” “How did things end up like this?” “Why haven’t I accomplished enough?”, we already have the answer.  You trade being intellectual when you decide to browse social media instead of reading; you trade relationships every time you focus on your hobby; you trade time with God for countless, endless things, that you erroneously designate as more important.

However, the scary thing is, sometimes these trades make sense.  Sometimes they make so much sense that we don’t even know when to trade and when not to.  Sometimes we set aside time to workout; working out is a good thing.  But if we added up all the hours we spent working out, we realize that there days, weeks, months, years of time that could’ve been spent with a friend, a sibling, a parent, a lover.  And while we tend to always have working out, sometimes we don’t always have those relationships.

So working out isn’t a bad thing, but when does it start to feel like we’re just trading away our time for something that is less valuable?  Aren’t relationships more valuable?

Time.  Time is a keyword here.  You can’t go through life without consequences, and you can never get time back.  We’re constantly trying to save time, spend time, or kill time.  But it’s the one thing you never get back, and that’s what makes it so valuable.  How are you spending yours?  How many times could you stop wasting it, spending it idly, and instead give it to someone else?  Time can be a gift too.

Consequences.  They result from every choice we make.  An obvious statement, but sometimes we forget.  The consequence of how you choose to spend your time may not always be the one you want.  Well, what did you choose to get that consequence?  Consequences don’t always have to be bad things.  What consequences do you want?

Actions have consequences.  I don’t think we should live our lives only to create specific consequences.  I’m not a consequentialist, I’m a Kantian–we should be good for goodness’s sake.  But that doesn’t mean we should forget consequences.  We always have to be mindful of where we’re going.  Sometimes we have more control than we give ourselves credit for.

Trade-offs.  Time.  Consequences.

What are you doing with yours?