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I’d be a fool not to write about this…

Well it’s true.  I’d be a fool.  I feel as if it is my duty to write about this, to make sure you are all told what you should be told.

Book Two of Elithius is coming out this December.

Why should you care?

For starters, if you’ve read my first book, then you should know that Book One ended on a cliff hanger.  That cliff hanger will indeed be resolved in this next book, so you’ve got something exciting to look forward to.

Second of all, I’m personally excited about this book.  I can attest that the writing in Book Two is better; the challenges that the characters face are more intense; the emotional impact is deeper.  Overall, I believe it is a sequence to be reckoned with.

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To those of you that might be interested, the majority of this book was written while I listened to the Attack on Titan Soundtrack.  For those of you that write frequently, you all know how much the emotion and “feel” of your story is influenced by what music you were listening to.  Thus, expect similar emotions and levels of intensity to that of Attack on Titan.

Also, in contrast to Book One which is very plot-driven, Book Two is extremely character-driven AND plot-driven.  The two tie in quite nicely, I think.  I’m the author though, so of course I think that!

Key things to look forward to, I think, are:

  1. new characters that add a new feel to the “main character team”
  2. relationships between certain characters (I won’t say who!)
  3. Intense internal struggles that are intriguing, dark, eerie…and yet surprisingly relatable!

I’d be a fool if, as a writer, I said nothing about my own works.  Thus…well…here you go 🙂

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As always, what do you think?

John’s Theme 1

So I thought I’d start giving you guys some song’s that capture the feel of each of my characters.  Feel free to add them to your writing playlist, as they are great for creating emotion and inspiring epic-ness!

This song is my theme for John Hedekira, the main character of my story (of course the music isn’t mine!).

Life is hard for John.  Life tries to crush him.  His own hildhood is a mystery to him, a time he’d rather forget.  His reality is consumed with his battle against the Evil on the outside…and the inside.

But, strengthened by his friends, there’s this hope, this light that exists inside of him, crying out a battle-cry, fighting back against the world.  Fighting back against the darkness.

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John Hedekira, the main character of Elithius, as fantastically depicted by Elizabeth M

This is only his first theme though…as the story goes on, his theme changes, as you will see.

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Do Some Stories Have Characters That are TOO Human?



All right, let’s face, we ALL love it when characters are human.  Nobody likes it when characters are so perfect that we can’t relate to them.  We want characters who have realistic struggles, realistic emotions, realistic anger, feelings of hurt, love, lust, revenge, pride…etc.

(Hopefully) we want to see these characters rise above their weaknesses and flaws.  But, we also can’t deny that we…enjoy the fact that they have these flaws.  We enjoy watching the struggle.

Perhaps we enjoy the struggle of a character who can’t seem to find a decent girlfriend; we watch him go through relationship after relationship, and we enjoy the ups and downs of his story.  It’s much better than a happy, perfect love story that has no drama at all, right?

Or perhaps we enjoy the feelings of determination, anger, and vengeance of a certain heroine that has lost EVERYTHING, and she focuses all her energy on getting back at the people who hurt her.

Perhaps we even love listening to the depressed ramblings of a divorced, lonely character, who watches the world through a window and just thinks.  Perhaps we can relate to this person in some shape or form, and it eases our pain.

Human characters are great.  But when do they not become great?

The Analogy

I’ve been reading this book about the life of Pope John Paul II (now Saint John Paul II).  Don’t worry, I’m not going to start writing about tons of religious stuff.  This great man just happened to say something really smart and wise (he was a pope, after all!), and I thought I would share it with you, since I believe it applies to writing and “human” characters:

“Without the Gospel, man remains a dramatic question with no adequate answer”-Pope Saint John Paul II

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Mikasa Ackerman from Attack On Titan is a character that seems to live her life as a question with no adequate answer.  She’s a boss, yes, but she lives with a constant sense of distrust towards others.  She has grown so protective of her friends that she lacks any sense of joy or hope, and has a cold sense of “killer-instinct” which comes out quite often.  Are there any other characters you can think of that might be “a question with no adequate answer”?

Why is this quote helpful and meaningful to understanding the problem of “too human” characters?

Let’s break the quote down first, starting from the end and going back to the beginning.

“…no adequate answer…”

The way I see it, this part of the quote refers to the part of “human” characters that we love.  We love the complexity of characters that have flaws and problems; at times, it doesn’t seem like those flaws or problems have any answers.

There’s an element of mystery, wonder, and even awe in regards to the intricacy of the human person.  We cannot seem to grasp the true depth of each character’s train of logic, his or her emotions, or his or her view of life.

Our mystery-craving, awe-inspired minds relish in the fact that a person can be considered a “question with no adequate answer”.  It’s exciting.

Which brings us to the next part of the quote.

“…man remains a question…”

Once again, there is an element of mystery that surrounds every person’s thoughts, words, and actions.  Also, every difficult, morally ambiguous situation we find characters in present the characters–and ourselves–with that question of who we are and what it means to be human.

Every character with flaws, with skeletons in the closet, with childhood scars, with seemingly impossible endeavors, is a question unto himself or herself.  And this is another part of “human characters” that we enjoy, that we take delight in…because we often feel like a question ourselves.

We can all feel like a question without an answer.

Get Your Head Out of the Gutter…

Anyone remember when Katniss is “running on hatred” in Mockingjay, or when she votes to have a Hunger Games for the Capitol children?  Yes she’s been through a lot…but she’s also wallowing in her hatred and own self destruction.

In my mind, characters become “too” human when they start to wallow in their own flaws, problems, habits, etc.  This is perfectly realistic, as real-live humans do it too…but it isn’t in any way a good thing.

Trust me.  Anyone here listen to songs by Twenty-One Pilots?  Adele?  How about Linkin Park?

So many songs that these artists write are about inner struggles, inner demons, past regrets, etc….and I get it.  Maybe these artists want to vent what they’re going through.  But there comes a point where it’s not venting anymore; it’s living in your problems and making everything, even your hobby/calling, all about your struggles.

I’m guilty of this too.  I’m tempted to make my own characters from my story so steeped in problems, so filled with flaws, just so that I can feel okay with my own.  But guess what?  That’s going to help nobody.

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Eren’s (Attack on Titan) answer to every problem is…violence.  And turning into a monster.  He forsakes his humanity to win his battles.

When we see characters wallowing in their sins or crises–whatever it may be–instead of rising above them, the act of wallowing in our flaws becomes NORMALIZED.  It’s NORMAL to allow hatred to consume you.  It’s NORMAL to let your previous, abusive relationship ruin your current one.  It’s NORMAL to make out with someone so that you’ll feel whole inside.  It’s NORMAL to become the bully because you were bullied as a child.

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Agent May from Agents of SHIELD is another character that wallows in her own depression and regrets…so much that she’s become rigid and driven by anger.

It’s NORMAL for every character, every real-live person, to be “a question without an answer”.

And you’re right.  It IS normal.

But only “without the Gospel…”.

The “Gospel”

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When you possess the “sense of the ‘Gospel'” that I’m about to talk about….

Following the quote-analogy that I’ve been using, we must discern the phrase, “Without the Gospel”.

“Without the Gospel…”

For the sake of the analogy, insofar as we apply it to characters, I take this to mean “Without a sense of right or wrong” or “without a sense of truth”.  Or “without a sense of hope” or “without a sense of faith” or “without a sense of love” or “without a sense of mercy”.

Because all of those things–right and wrong, truth, hope, faith, love, and mercy–is what the Gospel is all about.

Rewrite the quote now:

“Without a sense of right or wrong, truth, hope, faith, love or mercy, man remains a question with no adequate answer”

Why does this fix things?

Because the flaws and struggles of characters will only ever drown them if they don’t have this sense of “the Gospel”.  Without this sense of “the Gospel”, there IS no answer to man, who is a mighty question indeed!

Anger will have no purpose or end.  It will only lead to more anger.  It will lead to revenge.  There will be no satisfaction.

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Scar (specifically FMA 2003 version) wallows in his anger.  His anger eventually turns into a state of hopelessness which leads him to sacrifice the lives of hundreds of soldiers.  He believes that death is the only way he will find peace.

Lustful, steamy attractions will just go on and on and end in heartbreak after heartbreak.  There will be no love, no romance, no happy ending.

Depressing moods and streams of consciousness will have no meaning without hope.  Without mercy.  Without faith.  There will only be despair as the mind slips into a state of constant resentfulness and quiet brooding.

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Ichigo Kurosaki’s (Bleach) whole identity is consumed by darker and more “powerful” versions of himself.  He wallows in a desire for power, and obtains it by going deeper and deeper into darkness in order to get what he wants, even if it is protecting the people he cares about.

This “sense of the Gospel” that I speak of is the only way that we, as writers, as bloggers, as authors, will be able to create characters that do not keep humanity down in the dumps.  We must acknowledge how broken humanity is, how destructive we are unto ourselves…but we must also acknowledge that, by our art, we have a duty to strengthen the world around us by proclaiming the truth.

And what is the truth?

Humanity is a broken, fallen race, that will never be able to rise above its flaws and sinfulness…

…without the Gospel.

But with this sense of the “Gospel”, everything falls into place.  Everything makes sense.  Anger is satisfied by justice.  Sadness is satisfied by love and comfort (not depression).  Doubt is satisfied by faith.  Despair is satisfied by hope.  Longing and attraction are satisfied by love and sacrifice.  Confusion is satisfied by the truth.

And humankind, a question unto itself, is satisfied with an adequate answer: the “Gospel”.

This took me a long time to think about and write…so please let me know what you think in the comments!!!

If you like the way I write and the things I write about, you’d really enjoy my fantasy novel, Elithius!

Cover art by Elizabeth M

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What Inspires Your Person Will Inspire Your Writing

That title is a mouthful, I know…

But it’s true, and thus I reiterate: What inspires your PERSON will inspire your WRITING.

Maybe this means like an obvious statement, but that doesn’t make it any less true.

I’ve been really busy; my life is just BUSY.  I’m working a lot because I need money for an apartment so that I can commute to college.  My family is putting our house up for sale, but a lot of work needs to be done on the house FIRST, as always.  This means a lot of my time goes to working on the house.

I’ve also got relationships to keep up with in my family, friends, my girlfriend, God, etc…

Yeah, life is busy.  To be honest, I rarely have time to even THINK about my story because I have to remain focused on whatever else I’m doing.  It’s a painful existence, I’ll admit.

So it’s nice when I’m finally able to indulge myself in something that I enjoy…but something that doesn’t require too much creative expression.

Look, when I’m brain-dead after a long day of work, I don’t always want to write.  Becauseeeeee I’m brain dead.  But I can still do things that inspire me and therefore inspire my writing.

And what “things” would that be?

Uh, watching anime.

I know it sounds dorky or nerdy.  But if you’re reading this then you’re probably a blogger too, which means you are also dorky or nerdy.  So back off. 😉

Yes, I enjoy watching anime.  Not the weird stuff.  Or the romantic, pornographic stuff.  The good, wholesome stuff.  I like the intense action scenes, the heroism, the human emotions.  I love the beautiful scenery and the amazingly choreographed fight scenes.

Just look at this picture and BASK….

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This relaxes me…that might sound weird, but it does.  It touches me deeply and makes me feel like me.

And, in the end, these are the same emotions I need–that anyone needs–when they right.

What makes you feel inspired?  Don’t be afraid to find time to indulge yourself a little.  You’ll be amazed at the impact it makes.

I hadn’t written my book for five days until today.  But I just pushed out four pages on anime-inspired emotion and probably some of God’s grace.  Four pages is pretty dang good.  Yeah, believe me, inspiring yourself is important.

What do you think?