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Never Gonna Leave

To all my followers…


So I say that I’m an author

Gonna get big name, you know I’mma big talker

That’s what I say and y’all believe me

When I give you all receive me

And when I’m in the zone

You know I never feel alone

Cuz I know y’all are listening

I can’t complain cuz y’all are listening


Try to understand me now

If you know what I’m talking bout

Then you better just come out


Writing isn’t the core of my life

If it was I’d never stop

But I do, and the truth is, sometimes I stop a lot

You know I act like I need this

Like it’s who I am

Like it’s God’s plan

Meant to be writer

Always writin’

Going harder

Than anybody else

Gonna find myself

When I sit down at that laptop

I’m not gonna stop

No I’m not gonna stop

But I did


Yeah sometimes I stop a lot




I’m making my life only about one

There is no place for myself

I’m not gonna be nobody else

Then who I am called to be

A man for God, yeah,

And a man for my baby

She’s got me entirely


No question about it, I’m never gonna leave

Yeah, never gonna leave



See I’ve found something better

Something to release me from the iron

And the fetters

Of my mind, wasting my time

Dreaming big dreams

In a world that seems


But it’s not, it’s not even worth it

Cuz I’ve got my own life

And it doesn’t seem right

To spend my time in a world that isn’t real all right?

Now give me this

Hold on, just listen to this

I know sometimes I miss it

But sometimes I really gotta diss it

Cuz reality is calling

And I can’t waste time falling

Into my thoughts

Into my own world

I got a real one that needs me

Believe me

I wanna escape from time to time

But the truth is, my time isn’t mine

It’s Yours God, and it’s yours baby

And I’m tempted to turn my back on you

For sure,


But I can’t


Cuz you’re on my mind


You know that I’m crazy


About you


So listen world, listen fans

If you got a problem with this,

Leave the stands

Cuz I’m gonna live my life

In a way I think is right



I’m making my life only about one

There is no place for myself

I’m not gonna be nobody else

Then who I am called to be

A man for God, yeah,

And a man for my baby

She’s got me entirely

No question about it, I’m never gonna leave

Yeah, never gonna leave



I’ve already got a world to live in

And I’ve already got someone who is my world

She’s worth all my time and I’m not quittin

That’s why I’m taking time to write these words

She’s the one I’m living for

Don’t think I won’t stop writing

Turn my back and shut the door

For her

Don’t believe me?

Fine but you won’t see me

Go ahead.  Disagree.

Tell me that I need

Writing, and Elithius

But I tell you I’m not regrettin’ this

Sometimes you find something better

Than your own imagination

And this isn’t speculation

I’m talking bout a real relation

With a girl that is my world

No she really is my world

And it’s not that I don’t enjoy blogging

But I leave the keyboard and I start jogging

Thinking bout life, thinking bout who I am

Is this writing thing God’s plan?

Or is just a scam

That I created, for myself

Am I trying to be somebody else

Than who I’m made to be

Cuz maybe

Who I am is being a man for my baby

And even if I’m a writer at heart

You know, I gotta start

With those that really need me

No all I care about is that she

Knows…that I love her

Knows I’m always gonna be there for her

No matter what happens, she always comes first

Cuz she is the first

And she’s the only

Person I’ve given my heart to

No other passion will control me

That’s why I’d give writing up the second she comes calling

And I know you probably think I’m being extreme

But try to understand what I mean

I can’t always have both, so I gotta choose one

It’s either myself and my own world,

Or the one for whom I’d take a gun

And blow my ego to bits

And fight for her instead of me

I pray to God that we go on

Don’t know if it’ll happen

But stay tuned and I guess we’ll see

I guess we’ll see…



I’m making my life only about one

There is no place for myself

I’m not gonna be nobody else

Then who I am called to be

A man for God, yeah,

And a man for my baby

She’s got me entirely

No question about it, I’m never gonna leave

Yeah, never gonna leave

(Note: the picture is of the rapper NF, not me)




Building Your Brand

In college, we engineering students are forced to partake of a class that essentially FORCES us to get a job, and a good one.  I know, I shouldn’t be complaining.  But hey, I’m just a freshmen.  Getting a stable job is something I’m supposed to worry about senior year…right?

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Well, whatever the case, as always in the business world, there is a serious amount of stress placed on BUILDING YOUR BRAND.

And let’s face it.  As writers, if we are truly aspiring to be famous authors, we naturally become a part of the “business world”.  At times, it sucks.  It would be so SIMPLE if we could just say to the people of the world, “I’ll write my books, and you buy them and turn my stories into movies.”

That would be the life.

But no.  As writers, we are marketers.  We must promote ourselves and go through the tedious process of establishing a business-savvy identity for ourselves.

As we do this, we encounter the usual suspects.


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All right, so apparently LinkedIn is the “Facebook of the business world”.  I really just thought it was for old people that were trying to connect with each other, but apparently it’s a very sophisticated website.  I’m not sure if it works for writers, but I thought I might as well try, right?  At my school, we were all forced to make LinkedIn pages, so I have one!  Find me on LinkedIn if you’re interested, and I’ll follow you back.

For writers, I’d say that Goodreads is a great place to network your stories.  Note that I said your STORIES.  Maybe also your prowess as a book-reviewer/critic.  Nothing wrong with that.  I know that I need to be more involved in Goodreads, since so many people use it.

For building a PERSONAL network, I’m happy to announce that I think WordPress is great for that.  All in all, I don’t think fellow WordPress bloggers respond well to the “business” side of being a writer.  Simply put, WordPress bloggers are here to encounter other PEOPLE and fellow writers, not businessmen/women.  If you’re too heavy on promoting yourself, people will start to ignore you.  I’ve both learned this the hard way and watched as other bloggers shoot themselves in the foot by being all about “ME ME ME”.

Your Brand

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The first step to building a brand is identifying what it is.  You have to make sure people understand who you are and what you’re trying to promote.  No, don’t say, “Being a writer is your brand”.  Maybe that’s part of it, and that’s great.  But you have to be more specific.

The more general you are, sure, you’ll reach a wider-range of audiences.  But if you can’t hone your focus in on one particular audience, you’re going to turn some people off.  If you say you write about mystery and romance, but are constantly posting things about horror and fantasy, you’re going to confuse your audience.

Simply put, your brand is who you are and what you’re actually trying to promote.  All of your actions should flow from your brand-identity.  It’s like a mission statement.  This is who I am, this is what I want to do.  And then you have to stick with it.

When institutions do something uncharacteristic of who they are, or they deviate from their mission statements, things will go wrong.  People will not respond well.  It’s a simple, cheesy Disney idea, but it’s true: Be true to who you are.

Rock the World, Love What You Do

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It might go without saying…but I’m going to say it anyway.  Love your brand.  Love who you are.  If you don’t, it’s going to be hard to draw OTHERS to yourself if you’re a conflicted, irrational mess.  You must be invested in yourself before you can convince others to do the same.

Take some time.  Think about what you want, how you’ll get it, and if it’s worth it to you.  Believe me, this exercise will be worth it.

And, as always, persevere.  Writing is hard.  Business is competitive.  You’ve gotta be strong to make it in this life.

As always, I want to know, what do you think?

I’d be a fool not to write about this…

Well it’s true.  I’d be a fool.  I feel as if it is my duty to write about this, to make sure you are all told what you should be told.

Book Two of Elithius is coming out this December.

Why should you care?

For starters, if you’ve read my first book, then you should know that Book One ended on a cliff hanger.  That cliff hanger will indeed be resolved in this next book, so you’ve got something exciting to look forward to.

Second of all, I’m personally excited about this book.  I can attest that the writing in Book Two is better; the challenges that the characters face are more intense; the emotional impact is deeper.  Overall, I believe it is a sequence to be reckoned with.

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To those of you that might be interested, the majority of this book was written while I listened to the Attack on Titan Soundtrack.  For those of you that write frequently, you all know how much the emotion and “feel” of your story is influenced by what music you were listening to.  Thus, expect similar emotions and levels of intensity to that of Attack on Titan.

Also, in contrast to Book One which is very plot-driven, Book Two is extremely character-driven AND plot-driven.  The two tie in quite nicely, I think.  I’m the author though, so of course I think that!

Key things to look forward to, I think, are:

  1. new characters that add a new feel to the “main character team”
  2. relationships between certain characters (I won’t say who!)
  3. Intense internal struggles that are intriguing, dark, eerie…and yet surprisingly relatable!

I’d be a fool if, as a writer, I said nothing about my own works.  Thus…well…here you go 🙂

The Darkness Within Paperback

ALSO: Please note that Elithius, Book One, will only be available for $0.99 until Book Two is released.  Don’t miss out!

Click here to get your copy of “Elithius, Book One: The Red Captain” before the price goes up!

As always, what do you think?

Getting back into it…


As you might have noticed, I took a short break from blogging.  Whether to your excitement or not, I’m back now 🙂

Life has been pretty crazy lately, to say the least.  I’ve had midterms; I’ve been making new friends; finding out how college-life works; time issues; money issues; relationship issues; life issues.

Lots of issues 🙂

Don’t worry, I’ve been doing some fun things too.  Whether I’m sneaking onto the top of buildings, convulsing in class just because I’m bored, or tossing the pigskin around, I do actually have a life.  Sort of.

One of my most recent accomplishments in the writing world is that I just finished critiquing Christopher Keene’s debut novel Gods of the Mountain: A Cycle of Blades.  Good read, definitely check his works out if you’re interested in fantasy and sophisticated systems of magic.

By the way, I love editing!  If you have something you want me to read/critique/edit, let me know!

And, as always, the editorial process for my own stories continues.  Christopher Keene kindly critiqued my book, Elithius, in return, as has Russell J. Fellows, so I will be making a lot of changes to the first book of my series.  Hopefully, these changes will be completed by the time I release book two of Elithius in December.

Lots of things going on in my world, to say the least!

What’s going on with you?  Thoughts?

To anyone who’s interested, here’s a link to my book on Amazon!  Check it out.


Cover art by Elizabeth M

Liebster Award


A BIG thank you goes to Nicolle over at Stories of a Highly Sensitive Introvert for nominating me for the Liebster Award.  If there was a Supreme Follower That Every Blogger Wants award, she would win it!

The rules are simple!

  1. Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display award.
  2. Answer 11 questions the blogger gives you.
  3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
  4. Nominate 11 blogs and notify them of the nomination.
  5. Give them 11 questions to answer.

So, without further ado, here are my answers to Nicolle’s questions:

  1. What is your favourite memory?

It’s kind of personal, so I won’t go into detail, but my favorite memory is the moment I realized that my girlfriend is the most amazing person in the world to me.

2. What is one thing you regret, and if you could go back what would you do differently?

This is an interesting question because it actually haunts my the books I write.  A regret I have is not standing up to a guy who was clearly harassing a girl (albeit in a public setting), and I just walked away.  If I could do things differently, I’d punch him!

3. What are your goals at the moment?

Pretty much what they’ve always been!  I’d love to have my book become world famous (of course), I’d like to continue pursuing my girlfriend, and become a successful engineer at the same time.

4. How are you feeling right now?

Pretttttty gooooood. 🙂

5. What did you have for dinner today?

It’s 1:52 PM.  Haven’t had dinner yet!  I think we are having some form of chicken though…

6. When was the last time you cried, and why?

A couple weeks ago because I was seriously missing my girlfriend.

7. The funniest joke you heard?

“Why can’t Helen Keller drive a car?  Because she’s a woman.”

Sexist plot twist 🙂

8. Do you have any pets!

I don’t actually!

9. Who inspires you the most?

God.  My girlfriend.  God and my girlfriend.  They work wonderfully together 🙂  My girlfriend is literally one of the most inspiring people I’ve ever had the blessing of knowing.

10. Your favourite song?

Ahhhhh…tough one!!!  Too tough, actually!  How about this one?

11. What are your hobbies?

Uhhh….WRITING!  Reading, blogging, playing football, snowboarding, and talking to people.  I like talking to people about interesting, deep things.  It’s the spice of life!


  1. I’m color blind.  Yes, it’s true.
  2. I’m the only red-head in my family.  Don’t ask how that happened!
  3. It says on my drivers license that I have green eyes but my girlfriend insists that they’re blue.  For obvious reasons, I will agree with my girlfriend 🙂
  4. I’m a devout Catholic.  Does that make you uncomfortable?  We tend to do that sometimes…
  5. I’m actually 5’11 and three quarters but I tell everyone I’m 6’0.  Who wants to be 5’11 and three quarters?
  6. I prefer sausage over bacon.  Sausage is more…fulfilling.
  7. I’ve had two knee surgeries, both of them football-injury related.
  8. I’m one of seven children (note fact #4)
  9. I’ve been homeschooled all my life until now.
  10. I attend Villanova University for engineering.  GO CATS!!
  11. I got a concussion snowboarding and was really loopy for several hours…I had been convinced that the Ski-Patrol had performed mouth-to-mouth with me in order to resuscitate me.  Go figure!

Thanks again to Nicolle for nominating me!

My questions for you are the same as Nicolle’s!  Here they are:

  1. What is your favourite memory?
  2. What is one thing you regret, and if you could go back what would you do differently?
  3. What are your goals at the moment?
  4. How are you feeling right now?
  5. What did you have for dinner today?
  6. When was the last time you cried, and why?
  7. The funniest joke you heard?
  8. Do you have any pets?
  9. Your favourite song?
  10. Who inspires you the most?
  11. What are your hobbies?


“Dear World…”

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Dear World,

I know you want good things.  We all do.  It’s a truth that will never change.  There’s this part of us that is always hungering, aching for something we don’t have; something we are convinced that we want, even if we don’t know what THAT is.

The problem is, dear World, you’re looking in all the wrong places.

You’ve changed, old friend.  That, or I’m finally starting to view you as you really are.  Either way, you’ve changed to me.  People have changed.  And people make up who you are, World.

We are always looking for the newest thrill…because the old thrills don’t satisfy us anymore.  We have an insatiable hunger, and the bar, the standards, continue to grow higher and higher…but somehow lower at the same time.  The most common way I see this is through what “impresses” us in stories anymore.

For once we have seen something in one degree, and appreciated it, we are always on the look out for that same thing on a higher degree.  We are always looking for something, some aspect of a story, that can top another.

When we watch a movie with an evil villain, we are impressed by the villain’s cunning, by his master plan, by the very fact that he is so evil and hits all the right spots in his evilness.  When we were younger, the “bad guy” that might have impressed us in these ways might have been an evil step-mother from a Disney Princess movie.  But then Disney Princess antagonists weren’t enough.  

Loki was clever, conceited, and attractive.  We were impressed by his extent of evil.  But…suddenly it just wasn’t enough.

Then there was Moriarty from Sherlock.  He was crazy.  He was insane.  He was dark for no other reason than because he wanted to be.  But soon Moriarty wasn’t enough.

So then there was the Joker from the Dark Night…

and the pattern continues.  And it can go for any theme or genre.

Take romance.  Each new movie or book has to be even more romantic than the last.  More touching.  It needs to make us cry HARDER than the last one, and make us feel more emotional than the last one…because, otherwise, it just won’t be as good.  We always want things to a degree higher than we already have experienced.

World, you are searching for Infinity.  You want Eternity.  You are obsessed with the highest.

I’m not surprised that you’re obsessed with sex.  You crave it in every way, shape, and form…and that’s what makes you crude, dear World.  You want sex, but you want it just for pleasure.  You want it to numb your pain.  You want it because it IS impressive.  Because it makes you feel things that no other experience will give you.  It makes you feel wanted.  But you are obsessed with the right things in all the wrong ways.  Because you don’t understand that what you want, that sex, is meant for something higher than fleeting pleasures, momentary happiness.  You are a World of counterfeits, of lies.

You will never be happy, dear World., because you want the highest goods, but you will pay nothing to buy it.  You want what is eternal and lasting, greater than the first good, more captivating than the last feeling…but you’ll never get it.  Because you are unwilling to work for it.  You aren’t willing to hurt for what you desire. 

We are obsessed with what costs so much…but we are also obsessed with what is easy.  With what is convenient.  That’s why you settle for counterfeits.  That’s why you never get what you want.  That’s why you turn to higher and higher forms of “pleasure”…and turn away unsatisfied, and more monstrous than you were before.

I love you, World.  And so I tell you the secret.

What you search for is love.

And you think this to be an obvious statement.  You think “I know that’s what I want!”

But you don’t know what love is.

Love is sacrifice.  Love hurts.  And that is why you never have it.  

Love is not convenient.  It is not equal to sex, or the distorted types of things that you call sex…which, in turn, you call love.  And love hurts….SO much.  

But, what you have yet to understand, is that it’s worth it.

And so I give you this piece of advice…dare I say, this warning, old friend: LEARN!  Learn to love love.  Learn to love sacrifice.  Learn to give up your counterfeits.  Your desire for the highest of the highest is not bad.  It is simply misplaced.  What you want is something good…you just don’t know what that “good” is yet.

Learn, World.

For if you don’t, then only death and destruction awaits you.

We have already seen signs of this decay.  It is already happening before us.






North Korea.


Las Vegas.

Learn to love, World.  The fight has always been yours.


Character Tip #3

Our first tip was have bold characters that are unique.  The second tip was, once creating bold characters, make sure they have integrity and remain true to who they are.  Character development is fine, but don’t have a silly character randomly get all serious, and don’t have a quiet character randomly give a speech.

And now, for tip #3.

Love your characters.

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We all want readers to love our characters…and thus, the first thing we must do is become invested in our characters ourselves.  I know it seems obvious, but it’s true.

How can we make readers care and feel for a character if we don’t take the time to do so ourselves?  How can we portray characters with integrity to their character if we don’t THINK about how they would act in a certain situation?

If we want others to fall in love with our characters, we must do so ourselves.

There’s a serious temptation to for us to be unfaithful to our characters and wish that they would change; we don’t want to love them for who they are.  Fight this temptation!  You must love your characters for who they are.  Characters can change…but not without reason.  If you feel like changing a character just because you’re bored…then you don’t love your characters enough!

Love your characters.  That’s how you make others love them.