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My Double Personality as a Writer

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Sometimes when I sit down to write, I just expect the words to appear.  It’s like I’m staring at someone else’s book.  The words that are already there aren’t my own.  I didn’t write them…or if I did, it was a different version of myself.  A version that I am currently not.  And so I wait for that version to reemerge, because it’s the only version I trust to write my stories.

Sounds kind of creepy, doesn’t it?  It’s as if there are two of me.  There is the one that writes, and then the one that waits.  The one that waits tends to be the one in control.  Because I spend SO much time waiting for my writing-self to come out; then I realize that I’m just waiting.  Then I accuse myself of laziness.  Then comes the anxiety.  And then I’m in a mood where I couldn’t possibly write.  So I’m back at square one again…waiting.

Of course, when the writing-self does come out, everything is suddenly alive.  Suddenly, I am powerful.  High on imagination, pulsating like fire, I’m unstoppable.  The words flow without cessation, pouring out perfectly, like everything was designed by God.  Perhaps I’m getting ahead of myself, but that’s what it feels like.

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What it feels like to be in the “zone”

Do you struggle with a similar double personality as a writer?  How do you triumph over the “waiting-self” that we all have?  What do you do to boost your confidence and your drive?  What gets you in the zone?  Feel free to share in the comments.  I’m all about helping other writers here 😉

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A Writer Is Not…

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A writer is not scared.  He or she can’t be.  We have to be willing to accept the challenges, the looks, the inner and outer demons, in order to truly say that we are writers.

We all get doubts.  Is this career even possible?  Will I ever go anywhere with my writing?  Will anyone want to read my stuff?

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A writer is not scared.

A writer is also not alone.

Every single day can feel like agony if you convince yourself that you’re alone…but you’re not.  WordPress is a great place to make acquaintances with other writers and build a community.  It’s hard to be a writer and feel like you are your only fan, you’re the only person looking out for you, you’re the only person going through all the struggles.  Well, you’re not.

A writer is not alone.

A writer is also not a cry baby.

Look, nobody likes criticism.  But, in the words of my father, criticism is the only way that we can truly grow.  As writers, we need to be critics of ourselves; we have to be willing to let go and change what we’ve done, even though it hurts to do so.  We have to be willing to listen to others, take advice, and be humble when an editor says “This is crap”.

A writer is not a cry baby.

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A writer is also not a quitter.

So many writers…MOST writers, I daresay, could’ve quit.  They could’ve said “You know what, I’m too busy.  I can’t make time to write.”  It’s so easy to make excuses, it’s so easy to just forget about it for one day, or resign ourselves to the belief that it’s not possible.  We’ll never finish the book, we’ll never get a contract, no one will like us.

Lies.  All of them.  If you are a writer, than you cannot be a quitter.

A writer is not a quitter.

Or a cry baby.

Or alone.

Or scared.

Now get out there and do it.  Write!


So I wrote a fantasy novel!  It’s called Elithius.  It’s only $0.99 on Amazon Kindle, and only $12 as a paperback.  You can check it out here.  You’re welcome.

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Cover art by Elizabeth M

Writing Doesn’t Pay

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To my fellow bloggers, aspiring authors, and self-published authors:

It’s the truth, and it’s frustrating.  No one pays you to write.  No one pays you for being creative, or for working hard at what you love, to become better and better until you’re the best you can possibly be.  We spend minutes, hours, days, perfecting our craftsmanship of writing.  We carefully build and chisel every sentence until our writing sounds and looks exactly the way we want it to.  In our own little world, the world that we create, everything is going according to plan.

And hardly anyone else will ever know about it.

There’s something about being a writer that seems incredibly depressing and lonely, if you really stop to think about it.

We can have god-like creativity; we erect mountains, dig valleys, create cultures, carefully craft every facet of our own made-up society; we pour every bit of our own identity into our writing, and we would just DIE for someone to notice it.

And then no one does.

Other stories suddenly seem unworthy in our eyes.  “My idea is better,” we think.  Or “This person’s writing sucks.”  In a world where every author is fighting for attention, how can we not grow competitive?

I don’t know what the point of this post is.  Perhaps it is just to express and share my feelings with other bloggers (and I KNOW you’re out there).  I’m not trying to dampen anyone’s mood.

The truth is, every author must cultivate hope.  That’s the only way we can finish what we started; that’s the only way we can reach the goals we want.

Do you mind if I quote something I wrote in a story, back in 2013?

“You’re right.  You cannot do anything.  You are powerless.  I was powerless.  There was nothing that I could have done to save you by my own strength.  But power and strength, inner power and strength, are not things that can be created by man.  These must be given to him.  Even as a man, at the height of your physical strength, your own power isn’t enough to save this world from destruction.  Your own power cannot save the life of one woman, even one that you hold dear.  You are human, Earyis, and as am I.  But in this world, hope is not lost.  Hope—” Terren shook his head, sighing with evident stress and anxiety, as if remembering something horrible or difficult he had experienced “—hope must be surrendered to.  You have no strength, no power, so you must surrender yourself to the hope that it will be given.  Aid will come, and even in your darkest hours, when you cannot find the light, when it should be breaking through the clouds, or shining on the horizon, but it does not, you must hope that it will come…For without hope, Earyis, there is only despair, and where there is despair, there is death.”

-The Dawn of Despair

Cheers to hope!  Feel free to vent your own blogging/writing struggles in the comments!